Early Next Year — Window lyrics

Lyrics

I’ll spend my evening staring inside through a window, watching lovers heads on
lovers shoulders. i’ll see a hand around a waist, it’s something i’ll
appreciate way more when the arm belongs to me
Staring through this window at a world that doesn’t see me, it’s true that
there are happy people here. i’m just out of range, standing back within the
shadows and it’s good to see that some things never change
In a second i would trade lives with almost anybody inside, cause everyone is
smiling that i see. every person has a purpose, everyone seems to be laughing,
and nobody is without company
If i were a drinker, i would have blacked out hours ago, it’s time better spent
than wallowing around in my sorrow, i’ll just switch up my emotions from
self-loathing, right to apathy
I’ll be alone tonight again, tomorrow will be the same and i’ll never take my
chances, at things that i can fail at, i think it’s time to fix that,
go find some confidence again
My vision alternates between the real thing and reflections, the underlying
message that i see: an ego-beaten victim always dragging himself around,
upon closer inspection, i see it’s me
If i had a brick i’d send it sailing through the window, destroy that perfect
world behind the glass. but i’ll show self-restraint, for as long as i can
muster, in order for these feelings to go past